This is life...

Sun, 09 Jul 2006 19:25:58 GMT

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Thu, 06 Jul 2006 07:21:29 GMT

it's official.
it's over.
i broke up with him in a myspace message.
lame i know but it was the only way.
and i feel very good.
:D

Wed, 05 Jul 2006 20:45:43 GMT

i'm so sick
i can barely move
i look like shit
ughhh
make me feel better

Mon, 03 Jul 2006 21:42:44 GMT

ohmygod
what a fucking liar
i hate men
and the thing is
i don't deserve any better

Wed, 28 Jun 2006 05:31:50 GMT

today me and vicky went on an adventure we ate a lot
walked to my house from old town, which is like 3 miles in the humidness
then went scootering and rollerblading
:D these are our retarded pics

Fri, 23 Jun 2006 06:14:02 GMT

hmmm
i keep on going for walks
it's so comforting just to walk not knowing where you're going. Just to think and listen to my ipod. yeah i know i'm weird.
i'm giving nate one more chance, he knows. if he fucks up again i'm breaking up with him, it's too stressful.
me and ano scared the shit out of amanda scene but that girl still has balls. we went to talk to her yesterday and after she walked away called ano a bitch. ano of course went after her. she actually had the nerve to do it again today. i had to hold ano back. that girl has on temper she can't control. i can't imagine not being her best friend. she either hates you or grows tired of you. i love her so much. we hung out today at the mall for five hours dancing and walking around.
no more school. thank the roman gods. i want this summer to be amazing. i don't ever want to be home. i want to go a zillion random places with the people i'm closest to. hopefully i'll meet some new people too. i need aquantences because i hardly have any. but here's my list so far.
-oceanside
-beach
-sixflags
-zankou
-katie's house to swim
-natalene's house to swim
-disneyland
-knotts
-bowling
-celebrity sleepover with rosalyn
-tea party with connor
-parties
-shows
-the ponds
-road trip
-vegas
this list can go on but i'll shutup. i am going to do every one of these things. whoever wants to do them with me is free to join me. :D

Wed, 21 Jun 2006 01:44:26 GMT

it's amazing how a song can brighten your whole day

despite being left hanging for the millionth time
milkshake has made my day

Mon, 19 Jun 2006 04:14:09 GMT

so this weekend was one of the best in a while
on friday went to ano's house
we had a movie night sleepover thing
we went crazy and gave eachother steps
then we pretended to be retarded scene kids and but bandanas on and two stepped in the back of her house

then on saterday we went to that chalk thing at paseo and walked around all day
i came home and fell asleep
finally today i went to the movies with vicky and met up with nate after that

PS we heard amanda scene was talking shit about vicky so me and ano going to have a little "talk" with her tomorrow. :D we've been looking for a reason to jump her

Fri, 16 Jun 2006 04:41:06 GMT

"That's what boyfriends do, they take our souls out and pee on it"-Vicky
ahahahaha i love you vicky

Wed, 14 Jun 2006 05:00:39 GMT

so haven't updated lately
yesterday was a lot of fun
double date with connor and vicky
awwww
we went bowling then to nate's house
i'm feeling a lot better from last week
me and nate worked things out finally
and i'm no longer carrying other people's problems on my shoulders
i want this weekend to be amazing
i want this summer to be amazing
but it's going to be completely ruined
i have a class at PCC that ruins it
Monday through Thursday three hours each day
UGHHHHH i'm probably going to end up dropping it
i want my summer to be GREAT
one that i won't forget

Thu, 08 Jun 2006 04:47:29 GMT

yay
i loved tonight
senior project presentations
everyone was there
i got hyper off of artificial sugar
saw some tight projects
tried to setup vicky with conner
had a lot of fun with everyone
vicky ano jackie rosalyn jasmine thalia lydia alicia
nate ryan conner jesse john
everyone i lovelovelove you
bwahahaha

Wed, 07 Jun 2006 03:46:36 GMT

i'm such a happy girl
today was so great
i don't know why exactly
but it was really great
i love my gurlies and my baby
i love everyone
i feel gross and greasy but it's all good
OH AND I"M IN LOVE WITH THIS BAND
i've had it forever but never listened
OHMYGOD
goodnight
i'll shutup.

Tue, 06 Jun 2006 03:21:23 GMT

i swear
most of the time
it doesn't even feel like i have a boyfriend
we're always fighting
we hardly ever talk
but when we're alone together...things are perfect
and nothing matters
ugh this is so dysfunctional

Sun, 04 Jun 2006 04:20:42 GMT

just so tired
vicky came over yesterday
and went on a walking adventure for like an hour
it was fun we even went to nate's house since he lives so close
but left after like two minutes of his kickback
then she slept over and we watched to break up today
lamelamelame
after that we chilled at paseo and went home
i then went to nate's house for a few hours
i love his parents
i feel bad he always has to deal with my mom though
ugh now i just want to stay home tomorrow

Thu, 01 Jun 2006 00:18:14 GMT

how come i get so mad over this stupid shit?
even though i know everything will be ok in a couple hours
it hurts so bad right now
this has to stop
i cryed last night before i was relieved
i'm so unstable, i'm so happy at school then when i get home it just falls apart

i want to do so much
SOOOON
go to beach and six flags and oceanside and just pretty much get out of pasadena
i don't want to go to parties or shows
i'm over them
i want to do new things
no more shopping because i'm saving up for a chloe or balenciaga
just wish someone could understand the way i feel

Sat, 20 May 2006 21:56:37 GMT

So yesterday was prom.
:D
It was so fun!
I ditched school with nate and we chilled at his house and he made me pancakes. Then watched most of the DaVinci Code. After that i got caught being with him without permission so i'm grounded for today. Then i got ready for prom but forgot a camera, so i'm counting on other people for pics. But we hung out with Jackie and Shane most of the time and ate and danced. Then I went home. Yeah I', really glad i went. I looked pretty cute, and I never say that.
So I guess me and Nate are together offficially, finally, it's been like two weeks hanging out everyday. So I'm really glad and stuff it's just going to be hard since he's a senior, he's going to be gone. Even though he just going to PCC, he'll probably forget about me. I don't know, but everything has been falling into place for me. I'm VERY happy with all aspects of my life. Even me and syd are talking again. She also got an 18 year old bf. ahahah craddlerobbers.

Mon, 15 May 2006 03:55:39 GMT

i'm so stressed out over prom
i only have my dress
no shoes, sweater, clutch, jewelry, make-up NOTHING
plus nate doesn't have his suit(i don't like tuxes)
other than that i'm pretty chill
been hanging out with nate alot
it's so much easier when people can drive

Sat, 06 May 2006 00:03:23 GMT

i'm so mad and confused and so many other shit.
i have no idea what to do anymore
my mind is always racing
i feel under so much stress
i just want things to be calm and to work out.

school is just dramadrama.
why can't everyone just get along.
and now i'm going to prom and stressing out what to wear, hair , shoes make-up andasdhkja
i have this funny feeling in my stomach, it hurts and tickles
WTF DOES THAT MEAN
then i have to cancel plans with ano because she invited a whole bunch of people i don't want to hang out with
and to make things alot worse i got a big streak of permanent marker on my bcbg top
>:O

Fri, 05 May 2006 02:58:17 GMT

uhm

should i go to prom?
i really want to get all dressed up
and have fun and stuff
while still a freshy

but i don't know if i like him
he's really cute and sweet but i dunno
i'm too scared of getting in a relationship,
now that it's right there
but i'm always bitching when i don't have one

soconfusedsoconfused

help

Mon, 01 May 2006 04:50:06 GMT

fun day
with muh gurl jacckie
DDR showdown.

Sun, 30 Apr 2006 04:52:39 GMT

ouch
my feet and legs hurt walking around the mall all day
ano and i got matching sunglasses
because we're cool like that
there are a lot of armenians at the glendale galleria
the stuff was sucky
so i'm still searching for good jeans
i'm not sure maybe rock n republic or antik?
and i want perfume and a new flar iron
blehh, too much

Fri, 28 Apr 2006 04:05:26 GMT

this week definitely has mixed emotions. it was amazing and terrible.
-monday chill with ano, rodrigo, and thalia(cart races)
-wednesday shop with jackie and had good talk with ano
-thursday vicky's house
-tomorrow i (hopefully) get to see my favorite boy
-got three new cds YEAYUHH
(oh and i kinda like someone, and it's mutual,it's not going to happen though
so i'm trying not to get my hopes up)
BUT
i'm grounded
and my best friends have been lowered to three
even though i knew this was coming
it still hurts
but let's face it
she was a shitty friend (to me anyway)
i'm not going to detach myself completely
that's just immature
i know i'll be happier now
:]

SO THIS MEANS I'M PUTTING MYSELF OUT THERE
AND GOING TO MAKE MORE CLOSE FRIENDS

hugs not drugs
junks

Tue, 25 Apr 2006 23:51:37 GMT

WTF
apparently i have jury duty
because my letter came in the mail
&
i decided to redecorate my room
&& i wanna go shopping this weekend
somewhere NOT in pasadena

Fri, 21 Apr 2006 23:43:56 GMT

WOOOOOOOOOOT
i made it into VADA

tonight i really don't feel like that party show thing
so i'm going shopping with vicky
cuhs i have 1000 dollars
:]
and we're going to have our kickback movie night

Fri, 07 Apr 2006 01:23:07 GMT

leaving tomorrow morning
gone for ten days
no internet
leaving the continent
:[
i don't wanna go
i wanna be with my friends